One of the last things I did in Vienna this winter was to meet up with my brother to take some pictures. His idea was to place me in a public space and take photos against the backdrop of a crowd. We ended up getting some cool shots and later did some portraits too.
It was great working with my brother. He’s a talented and inspired photographer – if you enjoy his work you should check out his website.
Winter
I just got back to LA after spending my winter in my hometown Vienna. Returning to LA always feels like whiplash to me. It’s the walkability versus the cars, it’s the affordability and other material aspects, but the main reason is always the people. I wrote a little text on how it feels to say goodbye.
I don’t even want to breathe right now. It feels like every precious moment is slipping through my fingers. It’s like a piece of my heart is getting torn out. Because a piece of my heart is always with you. And I ask myself is this necessary? Does everything need to end to have value? Do you have to suffer to feel joy? Because if I could just have a bit more time, I’d be happy, no? I guess everything short of eternity would be too brief. Everything that isn’t forever with you isn’t enough for me.
Every time I leave Austria I spend the last moments with my partner and though we both know the date I’m leaving well in advance it always sneaks up on us. My body always feels like it’s incapable of knowing that I’ll see her again. It always feels like a last goodbye. I also miss my brother, mother and father and my friends of course. I miss the city and I miss the way of life.
But I’m back now. And I’m very excited for my last semester of CalArts to start tomorrow. I’m excited to see my friends, I’m excited to learn a lot and to share what I’m working on.
Paul 🙂